I AM INSANE !!!!

I AM INSANE !!!!
Or is it because I am in pain.
I feel all dry as if it never rained,
I don’t know weather my condition is a boon or a Bain ?

There was once, when it was all pink and nice,
But now I am a victim of my own demise.

I have turned crazy and also so lazy,
All my thoughts now seem so hazy.

Nothing seems clear nothing seems right,
I am going through an eternal fight.

My mind and my actions do not collaborate ,
Only insanity is what I demonstrate !!

At times I get hyper at times I am sad,
If you see closely its all to bad.

My mind have stopped to think,
I have lost it to its brink .

I dream when I am awake but it all seems fake !!
My nights have turned sleepless,
Which makes me feel all the more helpless.
All my efforts to correct them turn baseless.

I feel I am totally lost ,
The damage have been done with a very high cost !!

I try very hard to be normal but there is no Gain !!

Off all I can think is that
AM I INSANE ???

AM i GAY??????

F-U-C-K is the only word I have to say,

I love a guy but I am not GAY.

I am telling this at the brightest part of day,

Only truth is hat I am going to say.

Love is blind it never does see,

Weather the other one is a ‘SHE’ or a ‘HE’

As all are equal in the eyes of ‘Thee’

So who the FUCK to distinguish are we.

Love never does see any boundary ,

It is all about making your sprits free

Rather then considering Gender,Caste,Creed to any degree

Thus only Gay and Lesbians see love as it should be,

As from all the bias their souls are free,

And only love is what they always see.

Thus my love for my friend is as pure as it can be,

Though we are not Gay but in love are surely ‘WE’

Thus FUCK I will say to how our relation do people see …..

Lines added by SID

Love’s depicted wrong in context

has nothing to do with sex

what matters is the attitude towards us

People claim things n crap fuss

i admit myself i am a gay

FUCK the world we'll ever stay

its a privilege to love a guy

that seems tuff but for us "a LULLABY"

its just a beginning to say

we'll last for long n our bride's will stay

we proud each other n say it open

we may be GAY for every reason

Though we are not Gay but in love are surely ‘WE’

Thus FUCK I will say to how our relation do people see …..