I AM INSANE !!!!

I AM INSANE !!!!
Or is it because I am in pain.
I feel all dry as if it never rained,
I don’t know weather my condition is a boon or a Bain ?

There was once, when it was all pink and nice,
But now I am a victim of my own demise.

I have turned crazy and also so lazy,
All my thoughts now seem so hazy.

Nothing seems clear nothing seems right,
I am going through an eternal fight.

My mind and my actions do not collaborate ,
Only insanity is what I demonstrate !!

At times I get hyper at times I am sad,
If you see closely its all to bad.

My mind have stopped to think,
I have lost it to its brink .

I dream when I am awake but it all seems fake !!
My nights have turned sleepless,
Which makes me feel all the more helpless.
All my efforts to correct them turn baseless.

I feel I am totally lost ,
The damage have been done with a very high cost !!

I try very hard to be normal but there is no Gain !!

Off all I can think is that
AM I INSANE ???