Episode 2

On the way to the hospital Alex started to get worried .Since the incident he was not very comfortable being in the hospitals . Back then he had to spend 1 month in the hospital and have developed a dislike for them. Also visiting the hospital made Alex remember about Ron he had seen the shattered body of Ron in the morgue and he remember that he was about to puke before the inspector took him out of there . He was there to recognize the body the slightest site had confirmed that it was Ron but looking at the corpse sent shivers down Alex’s body. Alex started to sweat while driving and also loosing his grip on the wheel .

In the mean while his thoughts drifted towards Sara.
It was only after 3 months of shifting to the country side had Alex come to know about Sara and that to accidentally when a courier boy had delivered the package to his home rather then her. Thus Alex took the task to return it. It was a Sunday afternoon when Alex walked across the road to the house . First thing that struck him was the similarity in the two houses his house and this one seemed to be clones of each other . Then he reached the door and rang the bell. It was only after 5 min that the door opened and Alex was amazed what he saw . It was Sara( back then he did not knew her name ) she was in a bathing robe , her hair wet , she was tall a perfect figure but what struck Alex most was her eye’s the was blue but beyond the colour they spoke a lot they seemed to be filled with so many unsaid words and so many emotions. Alex also felt an unknown connection with her one he was not able to understand till late . It seemed ages before she spoke . Alex felt embarrassed and introduced him self also the reason behind his coming to her place and handed her the package . She was quite polite and offered Alex Coffee which to a surprise Alex accepted .He then sat in the main hall and she excused her self to change her cloths . She came back in a while beautifully dressed in a summer dress. Over the coffee Alex came to know that her name was Sara and was working in a restaurant .She too had come here from London . Alex also told about his present life to her .they had a good chat for few hours never realising the time elapsed it was an instant connection that was there . But then Alex had to leave for home .

On reaching home Alex thought that he found his soul mate but then suddenly things of past hit on him since Ron’s death he had decided not to be attached to any one as it was a great pain to forget the one you love . Thus Alex curbed all his thoughts and feelings and carried with the daily life .

He did not try to talk to her again but would never miss to get the glimpse of her while going for jogging in the morning . She would he in her balcony reading the newspaper . He use to wave to her and smile to which she used to always reply with her enchanting smile . All this was same till that night


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An Untitled Story -Episode 1

The silence if the house was broken by shrill crashing sound that came from out side the house . Alex was very confused and was not able to register that sound at that point of time . It had been 10 months not that he had shifted to this country side and he had never heard a soul even whisper past 8 in night . That was the reason he used to sleep in the evening and then continue his research in the way hours of night surrounded with his thoughts and silence. But today he was not able to concentrate at work thus he was taking a break listening to one of his favourite tracks but the sound that came from out side had shook him.

And now as his track reached a higher note reality hit back on him and be dashed to he window to see what shape happened .it was a usual summer night silent and dark as death but the difference was the lights flickering from a car that had hit the tree. It took Alex just a moment to realise that the car belonged to Sara his only neighbour in the long country side . He was scared about what had happened but then he just rushed to the main door grabbed a flash light and ran to the car . He was shocked to the sight that he saw .Sara’s car had hit the tree badly the front portion was all smashed ,front mirror broken and Sara almost flinging out of the front mirror just hold at tips by the seat belt. Her head was bleeding and her body lay as if dead . Alex checked her pulse and he found them pumping slow though . with out wasting any time he dialled the ambulance and told them about the situation and they set on their way . Mean while he removed the broken front window with full caution and also took Sara out of the car he lay her down on the mat that he got from his house . She just lied there as if dead. Alex had placed come cotton wedge at her head as to slow down the blood that was oozing out of it . He sat next to her holding that wedge to her head and watching her ..

Suddenly the happenings of past started to come up in his head . How he had left his job in London after the death of his best friend in an accident . He was there with him when their train got derailed and after that it was all black until the next day when the rescue workers pulled him out of the debris . The moment he came to senses he asked about Ron it was then he came to know that he was amongst the unlucky 7 out of 145 that had died in that accident . Alex had literally slipped into a coma hearing that news as Ron was the only friend , family he had and it was Alex only who had asked Ron to go the mountains on that weekend and he not being able to refuse him gave in to his idea to have an adventurous weekend . But none of them had anti anticipated what happened .

It took Alex a month to recover . His internal injuries had recovered but he still had a broken hand . He thought he did manage it like that as he did not wanted to stay in the hospital any more .

Reaching home was all the more bad as all the past memories of Ron started to flash in. Alex was not able to sleep during nights he tried having sleeping pills but it did not effect him .It was then he had planned to leave London forever and go to the country side university to do his research work and live there in anonymity till all the wounds he got in his heart were filled .

Getting a recommendation for the university was not tough as he was working on the same lines in London. Even the stipend offered was good compared to the country side that had every thing cheap.

Alex avoided the university quarters as he wanted to live alone from the crowd.
After searching a bit he had come across the apartment he had settled in.
It was a relatively new bungalow , Quite big for a single person but he liked it styling. But above this the best part was the it stood in solace only house visible in a radius of mile was the one across the road which was of same design and felt unoccupied . And Alex was getting this house very cheap as it being at a deserted place . It was 10 Mile away from the town and another 13 miles away from the university but Alex Used to love driving and thus he had settled down or the house.
And he did be always happy with his decision at in the past 1 month he had been al by him self and it was working good for him as he had fully indulged himself in his work which had helped him get over the past memories . But today they have come out of the box .

His lie of thought was broken by the sound of the ambulance . He looked at Sara again her condition was the same but the blood that was coming out had slowed down and some of it even started clotting.

As soon as the ambulance arrived the Para medics took over the situation . They put her to life support and put her in the ambulance . I asked them about Sara’s situation they did not say much but just that it was critical.

They stated to the City hospital and I locked the house and followed them in my car .



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I AM INSANE !!!!

I AM INSANE !!!!
Or is it because I am in pain.
I feel all dry as if it never rained,
I don’t know weather my condition is a boon or a Bain ?

There was once, when it was all pink and nice,
But now I am a victim of my own demise.

I have turned crazy and also so lazy,
All my thoughts now seem so hazy.

Nothing seems clear nothing seems right,
I am going through an eternal fight.

My mind and my actions do not collaborate ,
Only insanity is what I demonstrate !!

At times I get hyper at times I am sad,
If you see closely its all to bad.

My mind have stopped to think,
I have lost it to its brink .

I dream when I am awake but it all seems fake !!
My nights have turned sleepless,
Which makes me feel all the more helpless.
All my efforts to correct them turn baseless.

I feel I am totally lost ,
The damage have been done with a very high cost !!

I try very hard to be normal but there is no Gain !!

Off all I can think is that
AM I INSANE ???

AM i GAY??????

F-U-C-K is the only word I have to say,

I love a guy but I am not GAY.

I am telling this at the brightest part of day,

Only truth is hat I am going to say.

Love is blind it never does see,

Weather the other one is a ‘SHE’ or a ‘HE’

As all are equal in the eyes of ‘Thee’

So who the FUCK to distinguish are we.

Love never does see any boundary ,

It is all about making your sprits free

Rather then considering Gender,Caste,Creed to any degree

Thus only Gay and Lesbians see love as it should be,

As from all the bias their souls are free,

And only love is what they always see.

Thus my love for my friend is as pure as it can be,

Though we are not Gay but in love are surely ‘WE’

Thus FUCK I will say to how our relation do people see …..

Lines added by SID

Love’s depicted wrong in context

has nothing to do with sex

what matters is the attitude towards us

People claim things n crap fuss

i admit myself i am a gay

FUCK the world we'll ever stay

its a privilege to love a guy

that seems tuff but for us "a LULLABY"

its just a beginning to say

we'll last for long n our bride's will stay

we proud each other n say it open

we may be GAY for every reason

Though we are not Gay but in love are surely ‘WE’

Thus FUCK I will say to how our relation do people see …..

Changing lights

In the mid of a monsoon night,

I suffer from a lonely plight;

The world seems so rude to me ,

In this dying part of the night;

No one is near no one is dear,

I have to live alone in fear;

The pain within is so intense,

I don’t know what should I do hence;

My eyes search for some same old fun,

But it can find none;

The darkness of the night make it dull,

Seems as all around there is just lull;

And now as the sun start to rise,

I m cheering up to my surprise;

As the rays of the sunlight break,

Far away the dullness they take;

And here it’s a lovely morning,

I set out for the new day;

I hope to make new friends today,

So if the lonely night comes again, I have some one with me to share my pain.

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TIMES OF SADDNESS

Do not know what

Do not why

And also do not know where

Its like I m clueless about this life

Seems as if walking on a straight road with no turns and twists.

The monotony of life have made me empty .

I feel out of life ….and at times out of breath .

Its like a dead man walking for me,

Kind of a living zombie……..

My mind to seems to have got cultured this no,

It have stopped arguing, stopped reasoning

Stopped even thinking may be …..

Do not know what I m turning into

Ripples

....and one day suddenly the cool and calm sea of mind is disturbed by a small ripple originating from a small violent thought ....
leaving u astry.and suddenly the noise in your brain starts to increase to uncontrolable levels freaking u out u look for a vent ,some one to talk to hold on to But ! there is no one just no one .......
these uncontroable phases makes the Silent control different from that of the yogi's as the one they establish is more in control.They control their thoughts in it rather then the thoughts controlleing them as happens in loniness.
But! this is just a beging of it.with time the rebelling thoughts are less and ur mind lears how to react and control these rebelling thoughts and the states of trauma.with some time and control u start to get in total control.and enjoying the silence of the Mind.leaving it crystal for an enhanced thought process .
Hence forth what ever thought that seepes in your mind is nicely scanned and analysed before goin' further to be processed and u attain the strength to extrapolate the thoughts and reactions to the level of infinity.....
Your mind start toshow algorithms and 3 D models of all that u think amd hence ur creativity is enhanced to unknown levels.In simpler words u experience a all new brain power it beging able to control the thoughts and also capable of thinking to new levels all new heights...
This phase of loniless is like a boon in desguise .U become sharper and more creative all ur decisions are well versed ......
But thats not it there is much much more to it...